I do not know what’s happening to me. I cant talk to people about anything, because i have nothing to talk about. There is nothing happening in my life, that i can share with my friends. But everyone who talks to me says that it seems like i am not in the mood to talk. But what to say if i have nothing to talk about.

Its been a same routine everyday – gym, breakfast, office, lunch break, again office, dinner, office, home and then bed. Is this what i should talk about with m friends. Same things everyday. I really do not know what to do. My friends are over with my rudeness, my annoyed behaviour and my sharp words.

My biggest shock was today when one of my nearest friends told me that i seriously have gone crazy and i must visit a doctor. I dont know what was the cause of this opinion of him for me. But after a long contemplation i found out that yes, may be he was right. I m going crazier day by day and its not just the same boring routine that’s causing this. There is something deep inside of me that leaves me frustrated. What have i got in life? What all i have earned in this life? Absolutely Nothing.

I feel like trapped in this world. I can not do the things that i want to do and those things that i really dont want to , i have to do them. I am trapped within the responsibilities that i have. Its not like i dont want to fulfill my responsibilities, but there are other things also that i want to do, but i dont know how and when i will do them.

I feel like i am lost, i feel like i can never be found, i feel like there is nothing for me around. I dont even know what exactly i feel and this again leaves me frustrated. I am frustrated with this frustration that i have. This frustration makes me insane. I really dont know what to do, but will i ever?